Health Reform

Ok...this may offend some..so only read if you want. All we hear about now is health reform....how its going to ruin America...how its making our premiums go up...how we'll wait for hours to see a doctor...how doctors are going to leave the profession. Honestly I do not know enough about it...I haven't read the so called 3000 pages so I am really unsure of most of it. I am unsure of how it will directly affect my family. All I know is my insurance was fine so I wish they would have just left me alone...but hey...whatever...here's the part that does affect me personally..here's the part that does make it personal to me....from what I understand my tax paying money will go to fund abortions and although they supposedly signed something to take that out they said it can be changed in a blink and more than likely will and it will cover abortions. I don't believe in abortion. However, I do not judge or hate people who have had them. I think they live with that decision the rest of their life and it is not my job to remind them. I pray I am forgiven my sin and not judged for it & I hope they do the same. Actually, I feel so sorry for someone who feels so desparate to feel they must do that...how they must be so broken in that stage and state of mind. I say all ofthat to get to my point...I do not believe in abortion and in NO WAY do I feel that the money cut from my paychecks and given to the government should in any way go to a healthcare reform where they are paying to kill a baby.
This is where it is personal to me. Babies didn't come easy around here. I didn't have the happy experience of saying lets have a baby and then a few months later we rejoiced and announced to our family. I tried for over a year before seeing a fertility specialist who with God leading the way....helped us get out precious baby boy. The whole process lasted around 2 years and every other person I knew was having babies and I was heartbroken...and only someone else going through that could ever understand...someone like Brooke my sister who tried for 6 years and almost died from complications. We know how precious it is to hear...your levels are up....we know how sad it is to hear...your levels have dropped....we know the sadness of hearing a nurse call and say "not this time sweetie....we'll try again next month"...we know the disbelief in hearing..."it worked ...you are giong to be a mommy..." .....not only have we experienced what its like to try t0 have a baby, but I have sat in a hospital and watched my sister-in-law hold a precious angel who was never able to take a breath on this earth. I watched as she and my brother grieved and will forever be changed as well as the rest of our family by the loss of that sweet baby girl.
All of this....makes the Healthcare Reform personal to me. My leader, my president...wants me to give money to fund others who do not want their babies...when I desperately longed for mine...my sister almost died for hers...and my siter-in-law will forever long for hers.
I 'm sorry Mr. President...but this "Change" is not what we wanted. You can have it back. I'll wait on my savior to"CHANGE" this world....he'll do that soon when the trumpet sounds.